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Tuesday, November 10th, 2015
8:32 am - Breathe, day two
You're still gone. I woke today, I finally was able to sleep, but you were still gone. It means this isn't some bizarre dream.
Woke up, I was able to not cry in front of the family. score one for me. I couldn't help it though walking home from the bus stop. My heart has a hole in it. I still can't understand why you did this. I can't understand why you did call me, message me something. I keep hoping that your mom is going to find a book full of scribbles that will explain things.
I'm scared that if she does it's going to say I did something wrong.
I know in two hours I won't be getting my hello messages, and that hurts so much.
I can't function as well without you. I loved you so very much and I can't breath without you.
I wanted to be at your burial, but I couldn't. Many reasons, I can't imagine not having the sun touch your face once more. I can't believe you will be beyond my fingers to touch and be touched in return.
I keep seeing things one Facebook that I want to share with you, but remember I can't. I keep waiting for you to reply to my text message, but then remember you won't.
I don't want to burden your mom but all I want to do is lay in your bed. Silly isn't it? I can pretend you're getting a drink of water and will be coming back, but it isn't the truth.
What I wish for in all my heart is a time turner. What I wouldn't give to have a chance to redeem myself.

current mood: heart broken

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Monday, August 26th, 2013
10:09 pm - So that's how it works...
I'll be frank. Today just sucked. It's my last day of vacation. I took off part of last week, too. I spent Thursday cleaning house, seriously I washed eight or more loads and folded them and put them away. In between laundry was sweeping mopping and what else needed to be done but no sewing got done. I planned for sewing on Friday. Friday came and drove Kay to school only to find no daycare at that facility on friday. So I drove her to the Monsanto YMCA and they were not prepared to take her, either. After about two hours on the phone we found she would not be cared for there use she wasl under expelsion. So I lost my sewing day. Then today, my last day of vacation, also a set sewing day, I got two calls from the nurses' office asking me to pick up Kay because she had bug bites. But the nurse believed it was hand foot mouth disease and mafe me take her to the clinic. Not only was i laughed out of the clinic, they wouldn't write me a note to get in school. They took my insurance though. Grrrowl. So i went to urgent care and while the Dr. did laugh, he did fufil my paperwork to get her into class. I spoke to the principle about the nurse "calling wolf" but the principle stood by her staff and said that she was acting for the safety of the school. I pointed out in the handbook a child must have a fever to be removed and that I lost four hours of work plus the medical fees to go to the clinics. I was basically ignored and asked if the nurse specifcally told me or said she suspected the illness. When I tried to explain I have sensitive skinsensitive skin that my daughter has inherited, I was told to bring MY medical records of treatment to prove it. So disgusted. And Kaylee wasn't allowed to go to the rest of her day, even though it's a seperate company that I pay for. If this had been an isolated event, I wouldn"t have berserked about the medical thing but it's like something just didn't want me to have the time to sew.
I did manage to get a mock up of my work corset up and found I had flipped the bust cups and generally made a mess. I redrafted a few pieces and assembled it and I think I got this fitted right now. I have only the left side completed and trying to decide if I'm going to stay up late to construct the right side. I can't wait to put in boning to see if it's right.

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Tuesday, July 16th, 2013
5:18 pm - blah
Waiting for a break in my schedule to cut out pieces for the corset.

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Sunday, July 14th, 2013
7:27 pm - Fabric
Going to start working on the new corset, I really want to upload progress photos as I go about it, but I'm having issues with posting pictures of anything at present. I vaguely remember having to upload photos to an image hosting site like photo bucket, but I locked myself out of my account somehow out of non use... :p So, I'm going to photograph anyways and figure a way the attach photos later. Here goes nothing!!

current mood: anxious

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Saturday, July 13th, 2013
12:33 am - ah ha!
Soooo I stopped putting it off and went ahead and drafted my pattern! Yay, wave arms in air! Not certain if it will work yet or not, but I needed something to destress with after Kay's horrid behavior at school and being expelled. :(
A few things that I started with, first I took the LM pattern and copied the two front panels and adjusted the bust cups to fit me. Then I murdered the simplicity pattern to match up with what I had drafted. This all involved a LOT of vodka. I really changed the shape of the front side pieces creating a dramatic curve and sweep toward the front. I extended the hip springs gore and left the back panels relatively untouched. I next need to retrace all the pieces with clear clean lines and cut out my mock up fabric. I've got a nice seafood green I'd like to use, but I think if there is enough i'd rather use it for the final garment.

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Wednesday, July 10th, 2013
8:27 am - corset patterns
SO I successfully ordered and have on the way this pattern https://img1.etsystatic.com/007/0/6033662/il_fullxfull.469557757_3gvq.jpg and I'm going to redesign the pieces to look like these http://www.geheugenvannederland.nl/?/nl/items/GMDH01:200003806/&p=7&i=1&t=258&st=1876&sc=cql.serverChoice%20all%20%221876%22%20AND%20%28isPartOf%20any%20%22GMDH01%22%20%29/ and follow this instruction for the gores and gussets http://s269.photobucket.com/user/Laramoottori/media/Kuva34_zps9fff509b.png.html and follow the Aristocat work in progress pages and visuals to assemble this corset.

On the other hand, I was struck on the way home last night that I don't have to stop sewing completely at the moment for a lack of a corset, I can , in fact, sew my skirts. I know my waist won't change much and I can start drafting the patterns for that and stuff. I would like to complete one gown skirt and with any luck I can complete a day wear bodice and an evening wear bodice this month before my birthday. I went on a fabric safari in my basement that brought up a whole bunch of half forgotten plans. I think it would be really nice if i could wear a new dress for my birthday. However, I am unsure what my birthday plans are..... I really want to go to KC and hang out with friends and get plastered.

current mood: anxious

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Tuesday, July 2nd, 2013
11:55 pm - Corset!!!
So I've been putting off making any new corsets recently. well. for about three years now. My recent attempts have been not so good, the first one last year or two years ago just was an utter failure and has been a constant sore spot for me. I was trying to add piping details to the seams and it just.... yeah. I didn't attempt another one for 18 months it shook my confidence so badly. I am half way to recovery, though. I built a corset in pretty pink and white pin stripe with a flowered pattern and that turned out ok, not only was it successful, it made a decent under bust that flattered under the bra. However, it was too big and did not do a thing to cinch me. I'm at an odd size right now, my old corsets cinch me too tightly everywhere, the hips and bust are all out of proportion and I'm trying to design a corset that will fit my new post baby body that can give me the back support I desperately need and also have it cut as an under bust so I can wear it under my 1950 style shirt waist dresses.... which I would be more inclined to wear if I had a decent figure... grgrgrgrg.. SO, being inspired by http://the-aristocat.livejournal.com/ I'm going to try to make SOMETHING at this point. I will probably start with the LM Silverado, it is by all means my stand by pattern, the first one made and seems to come to me easiest. It made the pink and white under bust, I just need to fiddle with the size and take it in more at the waist and add a gore to the hips(somehow) or I can start on something completely new... http://corsetmaking.com/corset-patterns/CMS-P-AP1318.html or http://corsetmaking.com/corset-patterns/CMS-P-MM1870-1.html
I have in front of me the pieces of a corset pattern from here http://resources21.kb.nl/gvn/GMDH01/GMDH01_GRAC-15-02-016-002_W.jpg all laid out, I traced off pieces 38-45 and I think I know how this goes together, but I'll have to hope sometime next week my brain is working as well as it is right now and that I'll have time to really make this. I think this is the pattern Simplicity was trying to make when they published this http://www.simplicity.com/p-1802-misses-costumes.aspx which is a poor copy of this pattern released earlier and pulled too quickly http://sewing.patternreview.com/patterns/5748. I think I'll try to find my copy, or heaven forbid I cannot find it, buy another copy cause I think I know how to make it fit right and with the tutorial I saw I think I can manage the gussets better this time around. Anyhow I should be in bed, another 12 hour shift to complete!

current mood: contemplative

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Saturday, June 22nd, 2013
11:50 am - Loli
Getting motivated to start sewing, I have a few new brand pieces that I want to add to to make a full coord. I also have a few piles of fabric that I've been stock piling for years for Kaylee to have summer dresses, I just need to get down stairs and start sewing.
Feeling sick or uncomfortable with the medicine I am on and my stomach won't let me be able to concentrate on anything. bleh. I have so much I want to do and I just can't seem to do it. I keep thinking I want to loose weight and so I procrastinate on sewing anything, but at this point I'm going to just dive into it and hold back no longer, I'll justify that I can always take in something if I lose the weight. It's about the best I am going to get. The med I am on right now though has put 10lbs on me this past week from bloating and stuff.... grrr

current mood: annoyed

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Tuesday, April 2nd, 2013
1:20 pm - Rocco OP
Began making a Loli Rocco styled dress last night, I started with making the center back section. I smocked the center back section and sewed the side back pieces. I'm very new and do not have an existing example to take measurements from or sewing techniques. I'm looking now how long to make my skirts, I do have a separate boarder pattern that I will make a contrasting ruffle out of. Any suggestions would be welcomed. ^_^

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Wednesday, March 14th, 2012
12:01 am - remembering
I'm glad I've been writing everything down, at least sporadically, cause I reread some entries from a few years ago and I don't remember any of it, which is sad. I have such a bad memory for long term that I have to do something to remember events and occasions. Andrew always hates that I take pictures, but I need something to capture that moment. I worry that if I ever live to the age of 70 I'll forget everything that happened by the time I was 60. I have a crushing deadline to make stuff for kimono and I am just not in the mood to do it, Kaylee is refusing to go to bed and I can't get anything done. arg...

current mood: nostalgic

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Tuesday, October 11th, 2011
8:43 pm - WTFWhere has the time gone?
So, Where have I been? OK, let's see... Past six months getting used to a new job... It's good so far. Trying to get a small side job to pay for itself--thank you all for your help!!! Things I want to do, well, lots. Things I think I would have fun doing.. I would like for next year to have at Archon a presentation for the Masq. I want to do full recreations of the White Queen for me, the Red Queen for Ali and Alice for Kegan and make a skit so it would be something other than a walk on for all the effort I will put into it. Second, I NEED to finish Anthy rose bride, make Josh into Toga and have a fun photo shoot. This will entail dropping about 15 lbs to look right. Trying to keep the house up and running. Oh finally got a computer so it should be better off now. Ready to repaint the house, I need Shana's eyes to figure out how to lay out the colors we want. Decided to go with a palate close to what was traditional for the time it was made, going to be rearranging the rooms, K is going to her big girl room upstairs, her room will become the tv room and the tv room will become an empty space for activities....

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Monday, April 13th, 2009
8:31 pm - ok...

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Saturday, April 11th, 2009
8:03 pm - ummm wow....
I am not sure if this is a hoax or not...


current mood: amused

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Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
1:41 pm - Accessories?
New woodbaby mommy here! Gushing over them for literally years and finally I had the money to get one. Of course, you here this all the time, was at the renaissance fest and had my heart on a certain griffin and the perfect baby was the very last one waiting for me--he waited a heck of a long time!! But I have a slight problem, he's just perfect, but I am slight build and he keeps slipping off my shoulder and I am worried that he'll get damaged. Right now if he keeps slipping I just carry him around in the crook of my arm, but that crushes his wings(not to mention the dye from his fur rubs into my white sweater) Someone at the booth told me that the site has a saddle that works well, but the link is broken. Do any of you other wood baby parents use one? can you take pictures so I know how it works? How much do I need to save up for one? Any help appreciated! I want to carry him with me everywhere he so fun!

current mood: cheerful

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Thursday, August 7th, 2008
7:53 pm - New computer and stuff!
SO life has not been the regular relaxing summer days I was used to, I guess I grew up after all. Oh well.
I haven't posted in so long since my last computer was on its last legs and the lag was unbearable and such that it wasn't worth the stress it would cause to type up something, have it freeze and lose an hours' worth of ranting. Andrew tried to revive the computer's running capacity during the last month with Linux but it was such a bother that I couldn't read half the texts on my costuming sites.

So recently, I guess past six months I have been collecting kimonos and obis and all sorts of kanzashi(hair pretties)that I am totally in love with. I hope to dress up in full maiko outfit for the Japanese festival at the end of this month, I still need a few finishing touches, like working the hair out and figuring out how I will do my make-up--immortal geisha has been a huge help.
Cameron lost his first tooth which really drives home how fast he's growing up and Andrew and I have opened up the discussion of when to have a new baby, which he has decided it is when I feel comfortable with it. Speaking of such things, Cam went through evaluation last week and is so improved that he barely qualified for assistance. I think Andrew was fairly persuasive in stating that the reason he has had such success is that because of the special school programs he's been able to access was the clincher for extra support for after care and possibly for home as well.
ps my previous computer had time issues, can anyone help me reset the times to be correct?
Andrew seems tobe able to stand his job and possibly make something of it, right now he's in the office, but he hopes he'll be able to get trained for the field within the next year. Field work is definitely more up his ally for climbing buildings and such and he's doing what he can to move toward that goal so maybe he'll be with the company for a bit.

My Dad seems to be having all sorts of fun, trying to move to North Carolina, which I guess would be better than NY, but I like being able to visit NY with and excuse and purpose. I guess NC would be just as nice.

I am getting bored at work, I just feels I never accomplish anything all that much. But more on that later. I gotta get making Cam's dinner. I lost track of time here.

current mood: blah

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Friday, April 18th, 2008
6:14 am - Earthquake
Yep, title says it all......

Last night around 4:40 am I was tossing and turning when stuff started to fall off a table out in the living room, I was on the verge of getting up to yell at the cat for knocking stuff down when I felt the WHOLE place shaking. I will say that it is one of the most uncomfortable feelings I have experienced and that I hope it doesn't happen again anytime soon.
The funny part was that Andrew said that it was a nothing earthquake and to go back to bed, after checking up on Cam, who seemed to be awake too. The irony is that Andrew said it probably didn't even register on the meter because it was so small. When in fact it was actually tremors from a larger quake originating from somewhere in Illinois that spread all the way to Chicago. Luckily no damage has happened.

Ok, now I've been through a tornado and an earthquake. I kinda was around a forest fire once, but I don't really count that cause I didn't understand it at the time. But life seems to get pretty interesting when you least expect it.

Bought kites and went flying them the other day, but I'll have to find a better park with less trees for Cam, he got his kite stuck twice I think.

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Thursday, February 7th, 2008
7:58 am - Wanted
Is anyone attending the Marylin Manson concert on this Sunday in Saint Louis? I'm looking for a group, doesn't need to be a whole bunch of people, even just one person will suffice, that is willing to hang out "during" the concert since my friend moved and ditched. Just a silly, "I don't wanna go by myself" kinda thing, and possibly geeking out and coffee after.
RSVP ASAP if you can/or want.

current mood: lethargic

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Tuesday, February 5th, 2008
10:10 pm - Before I forget!
Happy birthday radcliffe!!! hope it was a happy, fun filled, great, amazing day for you!

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Friday, January 4th, 2008
1:17 am - yay for me
I can't believe my eyes, I get TWO two days off in a row this month, YAY!!!
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Spent yesterday in China Town, I've lived soooo close to it for a few years but never did anything other that go eat at a few places, but Alex and I went to a kitchy shop and found of all things zori for our kimonos and a few pieces for the Shuurei costume. Found a bunch of neat cloisonnes beads and fun stuff in general that when I have the money I'll go and get, like a cute little tea set and a sake set.

current mood: geeky

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Wednesday, November 21st, 2007
3:57 pm - too true
Another badass quiz from eSPIN-the-Bottle...

Which Sexy Are You?

MY RESULT:Classic Sexy

The sexy you exude is the black satin, roses and wine sexy that's all over the romance flicks. And your crushes will love you for it.

The nice thing about this breed of sexiness is that it's totally recognizable. Classic Sexy is the universal language of sexy -- bust out your suave, romantic gestures and the honeys will be able to read you loud and clear. Here's the downside: after a while, it gets a little predictable. So be sure to mix up your routine with some creative stuff every once in a while. How about Funny Hat Day? (Nah.)

Take This Quiz!

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